Oh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Why can't I have meaningful friendships? a;sdklfna;sdklf

I don't want you to speak in this way. I don't need you to say: OMG YOU SUCK jklasdajklsdnf;laksdANOREXIC as;dkflhasdfjsnfCRAZYksajdnfsad fn z;sdnkgflgf

AHHH. I want to forget the stupid capital letters and say CHEM, not chemistry. BIO. Not biology. Forget about stupid stupid stupid things. sl;djkfha;sdklf Why WHY WHY can I not do things like that? FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK. a;sdlhfa;sdf f;ijef I don't want you to be pretentious. I don't want me to think ohmyfreakinggod, I cannot CANNOT connect with that. I don't want to pretend to be STUPID stupid STUPID, or condescending. Roll my eyes, smile, say STUPID STUPID STUPID things so I can amuse you and I will be like omg I am so funny. asdjklhfblasdkf;trla;ejkrln

I need to STOP. al;sdkfnjskla;df IT IS NOT VERY FULFILLING FOR THE SOUL I THINK. AND SCREW SOCIETY, SCREW SOCIAL NORMS, SCREW YOU. BECAUSE ;EKGRLJNA;SDFLKG CAPSLOCK IS BEAUTIFUL.

AND NO, THIS IS NOT UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF ALCOHOL. I AM SO NOT DEPRESSED. AND I DON'T CARE WHO SEES THIS. BECAUSE FUCK YOU ALL, I AM SO TIRED OF ALL OF US. PRETENDING PRETENDING PRETENDING. THIS IS NOT A PLAY YOU KNOW. THERE ARE NO LINES SO STOP, ALL OF YOU, TRYING TO BE SOMEONE YOU'RE NOT.

ETA: OH AND WHY WHY WHY AM I LIKE THIS? HA. ITS BEEN FAR FAR FAR TOO LONG. ;SDKFLHASD;L;HJKRFA;E I NEED TO DO THE THINGS I WANT YOU KNOW. I NEED NEED NEED TO WRITE PRETTY POETIC THINGS THAT MAKE ME THING OMG OMG SO PRETTY. AND I DONT WANT TO WORK IN AN ENVIRONMENT WHEN PEOPLE ARE SO FSDJKANBFASDJKLFBADJKFLBA NOT IMMATURE, BUT YOU KNOW, A;SDKLFBN