Moondust and starlight

So the song of the day is Close To You, which played brilliantly in Mirrormask, and is my ode to Meow^3 my incandescent love. Alas, the holidays are approaching, Monday is approaching and there is no home for Meow. ): I worry. Mummy says that we shouldn't cut Meow's nails so he will have sharp claws to defend himself in the pet boarding place. -_-

WELL. I am a little happy, because the term has kind of ended. I know my scores, I know my GPA, and all the other little things that should worry me. I am slightly excited by the weekend and the binging I might do, and also the writing. Oh oh oh. The writing. I have missed pretty words so much. It does not matter that I don't care for the people I shall write about. I care deeply about the beautiful words and beautiful situations and caves. Oh CAVES. And perception-reality-truth!!! It will be like a brilliant technical exercise, when I plan elaborate metaphors and insightly characterisation. Oh I shall spend the whole of the holidays doing that. a;sldfasdlkf

Now. There is hope yet I should think. And CAVES. sdafhnasdl;fh

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

<3

There is something terrifyingly wrong about leaving a post that starts with Oh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck on the default page. So, well, yes.

I am happy! Hahaha. Do you know that Its So Easy To Fall In Love is on the Brokeback Mountain soundtrack? It is complete with the whole pop-ish, very upbeat rendition which I find very funny for some reason. Listen to the song, consider the context, compare and contrast, and HAHAHA.

Well. CD is overrrr. Forever!! -_- It is sad I suppose that I really fail to connect with the entire performance this year, probably because I really don't buy the whole OMG WE ARE GOING TO BE SO HAPPY thing, neither do I tolerate potty humour, or condone littering on the KS Chee theatre floor. The trees, my friend! But ohmygoodness I think I had more fun this year than the last two years combined. Perhaps it is Yishuang my incandescent Love! Or the fact that this year we have no irritating seniors, no irritating juniors and just a bunch of very crazy Sec 4s who bitch about our teachers discuss schoolwork together.

Now I am left with this giant bag of candy which combined probably has about 23490712 calories. Perhaps I shall ask Mummy to bring it to the office. Or I could bring it to class and pass it around. Or I could keep it, since I usually binge when I am stressed/depressed/hyper/hungry. -_-

Well. LA! One more week and it is the END of term two. Then I march to the library and start on my ohmygoodnessTHEINFINITEPOSSIBILITIES!!!!!! booklist.

Oh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Why can't I have meaningful friendships? a;sdklfna;sdklf

I don't want you to speak in this way. I don't need you to say: OMG YOU SUCK jklasdajklsdnf;laksdANOREXIC as;dkflhasdfjsnfCRAZYksajdnfsad fn z;sdnkgflgf

AHHH. I want to forget the stupid capital letters and say CHEM, not chemistry. BIO. Not biology. Forget about stupid stupid stupid things. sl;djkfha;sdklf Why WHY WHY can I not do things like that? FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK. a;sdlhfa;sdf f;ijef I don't want you to be pretentious. I don't want me to think ohmyfreakinggod, I cannot CANNOT connect with that. I don't want to pretend to be STUPID stupid STUPID, or condescending. Roll my eyes, smile, say STUPID STUPID STUPID things so I can amuse you and I will be like omg I am so funny. asdjklhfblasdkf;trla;ejkrln

I need to STOP. al;sdkfnjskla;df IT IS NOT VERY FULFILLING FOR THE SOUL I THINK. AND SCREW SOCIETY, SCREW SOCIAL NORMS, SCREW YOU. BECAUSE ;EKGRLJNA;SDFLKG CAPSLOCK IS BEAUTIFUL.

AND NO, THIS IS NOT UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF ALCOHOL. I AM SO NOT DEPRESSED. AND I DON'T CARE WHO SEES THIS. BECAUSE FUCK YOU ALL, I AM SO TIRED OF ALL OF US. PRETENDING PRETENDING PRETENDING. THIS IS NOT A PLAY YOU KNOW. THERE ARE NO LINES SO STOP, ALL OF YOU, TRYING TO BE SOMEONE YOU'RE NOT.

ETA: OH AND WHY WHY WHY AM I LIKE THIS? HA. ITS BEEN FAR FAR FAR TOO LONG. ;SDKFLHASD;L;HJKRFA;E I NEED TO DO THE THINGS I WANT YOU KNOW. I NEED NEED NEED TO WRITE PRETTY POETIC THINGS THAT MAKE ME THING OMG OMG SO PRETTY. AND I DONT WANT TO WORK IN AN ENVIRONMENT WHEN PEOPLE ARE SO FSDJKANBFASDJKLFBADJKFLBA NOT IMMATURE, BUT YOU KNOW, A;SDKLFBN

We seem to have arrived at an appropriate time during the year when everyone has started hyperventilating, mostly along the lines of: GPA GPA! BIOLOGY!entire classes are failing!BIOLOGY. lfnslakfnsdjklfna Why why why are A level papers easier than our test papers? a;kflasjdf

Heh. I deem myself to take the gracious position, when I silently declare that moral development is so much more important than my academic life. But still, I DON'T WANNA FAIL BIOLOGY!!!

Mm. Yes. This afternoon I got in touch with my Chinese traditional roots by checking up Meow Meow Meow's brithday on the lunar calender. It appears that Meow Meow Meow was born on last year's Mooncake festival. Explains the extremely roundness of his eyes. aslkfa;sdklf

As you can see, there are two types of adfljkhasdljkf. One expresses incoherent adoration, when there will be many many many 3s following <3, many many exclamation marks!!!!!!, and many many SQUEE-ish sounds that are illegitimately translated into the English language.

Example: Meow Meow Meow has eyes as round as the full moon. alsdljkfblsdjkfb!!!<333333

The other type represents some form of bleakness, when the situation is not very hopeful, not very pleasing, but not terrible enough to make you want to talk about it.

Example: CD Concert! Box! WE SHALL BE OH SO HAPPY. a;klhfa;skldflasdkf

-_- I don't feel very pleased. CD is going to eat up my pretty Saturday, which was supposed to be Social Studies day. And it is not not NOT worth it, because I really don't feel like it is all that interesting. Still, I derive pleasure from tying pieces of pretty paper together with little strips of ribbons which are fraying fraying fraying! And also the part when I laugh at the Nameless Sec Threes. In any case, I refuse to calll a stranger Kok. BAH.

This should be the point when I go: La! I am going off to complete my Math assignment/stare at SS notes/read the Physics PT instruction sheet/write my 35 notes for the people in CD/contemplate concert presents. But no no no no no, because I left my file at home, and I really haven't felt too industrious this week. Ha. My fighting spirits have disappeared after last week's havoc and drama, and now I just want to go to the library. Or Bangkok (!). fz;ldCLOTHESklandlaFOODlasdkfndnfGIRLSWHOAREREALLYBOYSfdkaslfnlasdjkf.

Reminds me. Is there anyone, anyone who is a) unafraid of cats b) has a clean home c) has windows with grids measuring less than 10cm d) not allergic to cat fur e) has no family members with history of animal abuse f) has no family members afraid of small animals g) will not molest the cat or give the cat fleas, and would like to look after my Meow Meow Meow for three days, so I won't have to succumb my pretty baby to EVIL pet boarding places? I have so far been turned down by, let us see, about FIFTEEN people. -_-

Bully for me. Brownie point for you. OH MY GOODNESS THE VAMPIRE PORN NOVEL HAS CORRUPTED ME SO MUCH. gklasdnf;jklasdf

Summertime withers as the sun descends
He wants to kiss you. Will you condescend?

-The Birds Will Still Be Singing

So, shall we be kinder?

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.

It's still a yes, because its much easier this way.

MEOW MEOW FELL INTO THE BATHTUB TODAY. THIS IS SO OUT OF CONTEXT.